Our own battle

Showing our feelings seems to be one big battle, a battle with our own daemons who won’t stop building walls around us. They will continue their work until there isn’t any chance left for us to escape their prison. They will continue putting brick by brick until we take our first step toward self-destruction. These daemons who fight us with flames and fire-arrows, which by only touching us they transform our soul in a black-stoned object and nothing more.
But we are more than this and won’t let them win the big battle, indeed they may win some fights now and then, they may weaken our forces but will never win over our soul.
We are like a roller coaster which goes up and down. We laugh and we fall, we are confused but also crystal clear. We are the hottest star but also the coldest iceberg. Some days seem to be never-ending and some pass in a blink of an eye.
Still we are part of this story, part of this tale, part of this life, part of the sky, part of the sea, we are the universe itself.
We play by our own rules and are able to fly, fly over the walls which we’ve built with our own weakness.

A te spiritus noster devoratur et nostra anima capitur ~ Epica – The Phantom Agony

Like a shell

We all build walls around us to protect ourselves from the pain and the hate which has overtaken this beautiful world. We build heavy, thick walls to hide from the sight of the people around us. We keep our inner beauty clean and bright, letting it shine only for our own body.

All that is left is writing, writing about how we really feel inside, about who we really are. This is the only way we communicate to the outside world.

We hide the bones and cells of which our body is made but that’s not all – we isolate our soul too, not letting in the sun.

One important aspect, while building these walls, had been neglected: the windows. We somehow forgot that the sun cannot warm us if we don’t give it the opportunity to shine in.

How long should we wait before we take the hammer and start breaking down the walls? How long are we going to hide our feelings? Do we really have to wait until we shade our skin, like snakes do, so our loved ones can see our beauty? Aren’t we the masters of our fate and the captains of our souls?

We decide how we shall feel, we alone built these walls and we alone can break them down so easily. Lucky us that we don’t have to wait until our soul leaves the body so we could decompose and leave behind our beautiful structure, like a shell has to do. Have you ever picked up a shell, while walking on a beach? Have you ever wondered how it looked inside, trying to figure out the shape of its skeleton? Have you ever taken time to admire the beauty of nature?

Nature gives us everything we’ve ever been searching for. It gives us everything we need in order to be happy yet we are still asking for more. We are hungry and the more we get the more we want, being too dumb to appreciate what we already have.

Nature loves unconditionally but we, are we? Do we know how to love? Do we do whatever we do just because we feel like it or because we want something else in return? Do we really have to leave our bodies for others to see how beautifully we are structured?

No! We don’t! We can undress ourselves from these dirty clothes we are wearing every single day, and let the world see our inner beauty.

We can take this beautiful shell as our example, that we found while walking on a beach. It had to leave its beautiful home for us to see its lines and shapes, but we can use our power to show anyone our beauty. If the shell had had the same power it wouldn’t have wasted it, I assure you.

 

Don’t waste your power on building walls but take it all to spread love.

This time meet me on my sunny road

This time meet me on my sunny road, dancing, spinning and laughing out loud. I finally feel that I deserve to be happy too, after everything I’ve done for the people in my inner circle I think I can finally put my weapons down and let the cold breeze cover me whole. I can finally breathe love again, I am finally free of your lashes which tightened my souls so hard that even now after months of freedom I can still see the marks they had left behind. But it’s hurting less and less with each day passing by! My wounds are healing and yours will soon start to burn. My dear lost friend you better stand up and start taking care of yourself because I am not in your universe anymore. I’ve changed the galaxy and left your Imperium. I’ve traveled way too far to turn back to my past. I’ve told you and warned you that once I’ll be gone I’ll be gone forever. Yet there you are my dear craving for my soul which all these years you’ve mistreated. The game is over and none of us has won it but I’m the one standing, I’m the one breathing, I’m the one who’s happy now for it was not my game but yours.

Loud like love

“You have your brush and colours, paint paradise, and in you go” says Nikos Kazantzakis.

Step out of the madness in which you are trapped in, step out of the darkness that shadowed your soul.

Paint your life the way you want it and not the way others want it to be for you.

Be yourself with all the lines and curves, with all the circles and squares you are made of.

Be unique and not just a copy of someone else. Be the best you and dare to live the way you wish to live. Don’t be ashamed of your loudly laughter, that could even be heard in the depths of the Dragon Hole.

Be the music in the morning and the long talks at night. Be the light you need in the absolute of the night and all the things you hold on tight.

Be the hard step of your feet, with loudly bells now and then. Be that chaotic soul of yours and don’t ever let anyone tell you that’s misery. Someone’s chaos is someone else’s order and you know that!

Take all your energy and spread the love you have inside you over the entire world.

Bring smiles on someone else’s beautiful lips and even tears on their crystal-clear eyes. Tears of joy or sadness, let them all come down your face. We are alive when we feel and all of your tears are real. They not only clean your eyes but also your soul, so let it out, take your time and release everything you have deep inside of you. Take all the time you have to understand yourself better.

Accept yourself with the good and the bad for we are all both humans and monsters and that’s okay. It’s okay to feel afraid sometimes. Let the fear come out of your soul and hug it as tight as you can and it will disappear in a blink of an eye.

We can get rid of our bad emotions only by fighting them back with love. The purest emotion of all times. The clearest water you could ever look through and the freshest breath you could possibly take in.

Remember your childhood days when you used to laugh out loud, love unconditionally and didn’t know how to hide your emotions, not that you ever thought of doing it. Remember the giggles which conquered everyone’s heart whenever they heard them.

Arrange a rendezvous with your inner child and ask him to teach you how to love again!